A gift to you
55 minutes ago
Hey I just want to say thank you for your responses on my last post. I was really wrapped around the axle in my own confusion and insecurity and general weirdness, and you truly helped me see things in a different light.
You know how sometimes you just replay the same damn tape in your head so many times, and you can’t come up with something new, but also it all somehow feels like TOP SECRET INFORMATION so you can’t talk anybody? And then you finally talk to someone and they’re like, “Uh, what about this,” and things are instantly different and ya wish you would have said something sooner?
That’s what that was like. And I’m genuinely grateful. The internet can be such a fucked-up place, but we have a good thing going here and have for a long time.
I’m grappling with belonging and not belonging to two countries. And that is what it is. I’m in a pandemic and uncertain American landscape just like you, but different. And I’m going to write what it’s like here because that, also, is what it is.
These are my deep thoughts. I hope you’re impressed.
I had a friend tell me once “We aren’t in the business of outcomes.” I try to remember that, but when I’m afraid I want to control everything. I think if I just manage it all properly, I’ll feel okay again. Sadly for us controlling things is ALSO impossible and fun fact it doesn’t work anyway so maybe we just need to end up back at fuck it, it is what it is, and it’s alright—and trust our friends who tell us so.
Anyway here’s a picture of these two being cute. ... See MoreSee Less
I write Renegade Mothering and wrote a book called I'M JUST HAPPY TO BE HERE. And then we moved to Holland.
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